Part ll

13 DECEMBER 2011.

2011-12-16T22:19:00.002+08:00

UNIVERSAL STUDIO SINGAPORE , BABY!

So, we went to USS with Hani and Eidil family.

No, like, really . A total of 11 people went there. MASSIVE right,

its like freaking happening. The more the merrier. I had to thank Hani, thank you! <3

We went from 10am to 9pm. He sent me home, aww. He bought me a lot of goodies.

I bought a lot of goodies for him too. I lost my voice after riding those RC Cyclon and Human.

But it was fun. a load of fun. hahas ! :)

I might be posting a bit late cause.. forgot to blog. haha, busy tumblr-ing ;p

Alright then. Had my fun, I'm recovering slowly.

Its been 6 days since Im sick,

Im finding jobs now.

ANY JOB RECOMMENDATION, PLEASE LET ME KNOW. THANKS :)

Lit.

2011-10-31T11:49:00.001+08:00

Hani is taking lit today. All the best for her. Will be meetin her later on. She was there for me when i was feeling super down. Meeting Syawal and all. She texted me in the middle of the night just to say a minor thing. Awww (': , she's like a bestfriend to me.

Got science class. LAST. for Chem :x
Ohh. I got to do well for all this 3 subjects. After O's, going to WWW with loves and USS with Azari :3

(':

2011-10-31T11:45:00.001+08:00

Texted Hafiz in the middle of the night. Feeling so down about Azy's words and actions. Cant help myself but to cry. But then again, he doesnt love me anymore. What can i do right? Sigh.

Hafiz spend a lot of time texting me a whole long message haha. Smngts. Im super touched. He understands what im going through. Wish I could find someone like him (':

TOWN-NERS!

2011-10-23T16:42:00.001+08:00

Yesterday, we got a double date. Musa, Hani , Syawal and me. Hoho. Kinda irritated by S. Zzzz. I want to shop too! Well, no one can replaced him, still. Oh well. Then, after S went back home, we went to Somerset and walk around at Scape, Flea market. Bought an owl necklace for Hafiz and a camera ring :3 . BEST LAHH! hHa. Reaching at Tamp, Eidil came along. Now, i pair up with Musa. Kebetulan we both wear white. HAHAHA! Opposite with Mr.A :c , okayy! Musa wad nice. I walk alone, then Musa came and teman me. Awww! One day, we gonna shop together again! YAY! Me and musa, all of our ex-es left us for someone else. Those jerks and bitches. Pfft! Well, had an awesome day anyway. S delete me from Tgged. So whuuut? -_- ! hahas!

STAAARS!

2011-10-21T17:42:00.001+08:00

Starting from today, im wearing this necklace. Nice right? Bought it with H :D , hahas. At Tampines Mall. No more hearts for me. Im waaaaay over that :)

Science Practical

2011-10-20T10:12:00.001+08:00

YEARGHHHHH! im not that confident enough, not without his moral support. Sigh! No, im strong enough. I can stand on my own. Sigh. He choose her, Nadiah. Not You. Haiz! Well, i should just move on and do my best. I will prove to you and make you regret your decision. Im gonna!

Oh. GOODLUCK TO THOSE TAKING SCIENCE PRACT TODAYY! &, thanks to those who text me wishing me goodluck. :DDD

A gift for them.

2011-10-20T10:09:00.001+08:00

Well, its kinda a farewell gift, bought it at Forever 21 while going out with Hani. You know what? Its kinda OK being single. Well, at least no more heartbreak and no one gonna cheat on me anymore :D

hoho

2011-10-19T01:24:00.001+08:00

Errrrrr? HAHAHA. speechless :D

No more you.

2011-10-17T19:47:00.001+08:00

I've closed my heart for you. You've changed? Yeah right. That bitch, your girlfriend now are so into you. You think im dumb? Yeah, used to because i was madly in love with you. But now, im not stupid enough for you to fcuking hurt me. No, not anymore. Stop texting me and all. Dont even come back. You dont deserve me or my love. I love you with all my heart but all you ever give me was a piece of shit. I'll tell you, i'll never forgive you and I hope, you'll get what you deserved for cheating on me. So what if i still love you? Just like my other ex, you are just the same. If you can move on, i can too. Im not gonna cry anymore, not even a teardrop. DONT EVEN THINK ABOUT IT. thought you were different, yeah, you are much more worse. At least, i've seen your true colour now. Oh,and the $400 bucks you borrow, you can just give to that slut. GOODBYE, AZRUN ZAINULLAH!

2nd last week.

2011-10-11T01:06:00.001+08:00

Sigh. Didnt know I was this emotionally attached to them. Sigh. Where is Saidah?! O.o, must tell Hafiz to upload the pictures faaaast :D , Rusy, Hani & Hafiz, gonna miss you all! Goodluck for your O level :D

gift.

2011-10-11T00:49:00.001+08:00

Thank you H. for the bracelet :) , appreciate it lots. It was nice of you to make it a surprise for me. Hahas. Hope you and AH , had a lot of fun watching Reel Steel. Ape nye member lahh tgglkan orang -__- , haha! Well. Had a great time anyway :) thank you!

Shit happens

2011-10-09T00:22:00.001+08:00

How do you explain this? By telling me that its not meant for you? Its in your OWN facebook wall. Guess, even when im gone, you still have an affair with that slut. Oh well, i wish you all the best with her. If you want that type of person to be your lifetime partner, its your choice. Telling me that you've realized your mistake and you were stupid and dumb! But A. , honestly, if you really regret it, you would take some actions instead of just telling me. Cause this hurts me so much. Im too dissappointed in you. I cant trust you anymore. Go to that b*tch.

For those assholes out there,

2011-10-08T00:52:00.001+08:00

♥♥♥

2011-10-08T00:51:00.001+08:00

Couldnt tell you to be back together. But if we are meant to be together, we'll be together again. Until you change for the better for both of us. Please. Just stop flirting around )':

Meet 'her'

2011-10-07T12:47:00.001+08:00

Well, this is my new shoes. Daddy bought for me ♥. Only $45. Cheap right? Nyehahaaa. Thank you Ayah! ♥

Urm..

2011-10-06T00:29:00.001+08:00

HAPPY 27th MONTHSARY! ♥

I still love you, no matter what. It has always been about you. Kalau kte ade jodoh, pasti kita akan bertemu lagi. InsyaAllah. I'll always pray for your happiness. Only you.

byebye.

2011-10-05T21:03:00.003+08:00

Yeahh. my parents are out-of-town.

Thought of spending the time with boyf, but oh well. i got none -.-

leading the single life, painfully.

To Him, you can just marry your work okay? dont bother yourself to bother me.

Nur is here ! Yeah. Fun time soon ! :D

Just now at E!hub, with Hani, Nani , Saidah , Hafeez and Syawal. hoho.

My IRK Notes with Hafeez. Tomorrow meeting Hani , Nani and Saidah again.

Im gonna buy those Supra's shoes tomorrow.

OHHHH. Cotton on's is having a massive sale. wish could be with him.. haiz )':

tryin' to move on, is so hard..

Cheated.

2011-10-04T22:03:00.001+08:00

Im tired. Tired of being cheated. Clearly you know thats wrong. I cant forgive you. I cant. No matter how much I love you still, you hurt me too deeply already. And even after this, you are still 'sweet-talking' with her. Im tired. I guess, all that effort and sacrifices went to waste. Since you throw away relationship into the garbage just like that. Whats worse is that, you dont even ask me to stay. And you dont even try to make things okay. Im tired. I really am. Go cheat someone else heart and feelings. You are done with mine.

this is true,

2011-10-04T10:14:00.001+08:00

The reason i protect our relationship all the way. I sacrificdd everything that I could. You still dont understand and you never will. If only you would appreciate me earlier and same goea for our relationship ♥

Orang gile -.-

2011-10-03T09:33:00.001+08:00

Another crazy fella Inbox me in FB like this. Its been more than 2 years and still dont know when to give up. Haiya! Im not yours, you are not mine. Get it? -.- , and clearly, i do not belong with you! Give it up, alright Raden? -.-

Ayah..

2011-10-03T09:07:00.001+08:00

Waking me up early doesnt make me want to study. I've no mood to study. My head hurts. My eyes are in pain. So yeah, the person that I love , let me go. You dont expect me to just study right?
Im sorry Ayah. I really am. I'll do better this time. Just let me cheer up a lil bit.
Cause it hurts so much. It really hurts. But, i gotta be strong!
He dont deserve anymore chances. I've realized, he kept bitching about me when he is with his friends. He didnt wear our ring. He didnt admit that he is attached nor Im his gf. 2 years, I still havent met his parents yet. Guess, he was never serious with me in the first place. I'll buck up.

Azy, you had your chances, you blew it. I went through a lot protecting our relationship. But you just let some girls you barely know, touch you. Its disappointing. Goodbye.

)':

2011-10-02T23:53:00.001+08:00

Get over him. He's not even worth it. He is not worth your time or your tears. Yea you loved him, I know that. And I know you just can’t see yourself with anyone other than him, I get that. I’ve been there. But why should you spend all your time sitting at home, bawling your eyes out and wondering where he is and who he is with. Do you honestly think he is thinking about you? No. Sure it hurts, the fact that he is out there falling in and out of love with other girls. Yea your gonna see him with one of his new girlfriends. Prepare yourself, cuz straight up; its gonna hurt. He will hold her a little closer and squeeze her hand a little tighter just because he knows your watching. He knows its killing you; that’s why he will do it. Don’t let him get to you because that, well that’s exactly what he wants. Don’t give him what he wants. He doesn’t even deserve it. So what if he doesn't talk to you; do you honestly wanna be friends with an ***hole like him anyways? Thing is I know you still do. But give it time. Because all he would do is talk about his new girlfriend and just try and make you jealous, do you really wanna hear that? No. Screw him and his girlfriend. He will be sorry. Trust me. When he finally sees you with some other guy who’s not him. With that huge grin on your face and your boyfriend holding you close, he will realize how happy you are now. And how happy your boyfriend is because he has you; the girl of his dreams. He will realize the huge mistake he made when he let you go, when he decided to choose her over you. When he decided he just did not love you the same. Trust me, he will be sorry. And don’t you sit there thinking he won't be sorry I know you are. But I guarantee you now; He will be sorry. So don’t go on spending your nights waiting for that one phone call you know your never gonna get. Or that IM you know he will never send you simply because he likes to ignore you. He like to pretend he does not see you online, he does it outta spite just because he knows its killing you. When he walks past you in the hallways he is gonna look past you, but you need to know he will do that cuz he knows somewhere inside you, it will hurt. I ain’t gonna lie to you. It will hurt. It’ll hurt alot. But it will hurt even more when you see her name and how much he loves her in his profile. Its all gonna hurt. Knowing your not the girl that’s making him smile. Knowing your not the first person he thinks of when he wakes up and the last before he goes to sleep. Knowing your not the face on his background of his phone anymore. Knowing if he hasn’t already he will delete the album of pictures of you he has on his phone. Knowing you wont be spending every single moment possible with him. Knowing there’s not gonna be no more late night phone calls arguing about who loves who the most. And you know what, today, tomorrow, next week, months from now; your phone will go off with a text message, you will instantly grab your phone hoping its him saying he wants to give your relationship another shot. But trust me; hes got to much pride. Even if he wanted to be back with you, he wouldn’t tell you. Your soon gonna realize he doesn’t care about you anymore and he wont be the first person you call when your upset. He wont be the one to put that smile back on your face. And yea its gonna hurt; its gonna hurt alot.

You had your chance and you blew it.

2011-10-02T21:14:00.002+08:00

You see, People deserves second chance. But you had more than that.

You promised me what? that you'll be loyal and faithful to me after the photo with Gen.

" I didnt touched her. She touched me." This is all you had to say ? i told you not to get near to girls, any girls. know the limit to yourself. but you didnt.

Boy, it takes two hands to clap.

I really appreciate what you had written on my blog. But i guess, it means nothing now.

Thank you, for hurting me again and again. I hope you are happy.

You know its wrong, yet you do it. Two days straight you pushed me away, when you had just admit that you had been neglecting me. You know what, Azrun ? She can take my place. Im tired. I really am.

Goodbye.



2011-10-02T19:53:00.001+08:00

Hello, Hairi Safwan! 

Ahh.. Awak handsome lah. Nak add dekat FB, tapi malu lahh! ♥

Another version, TOP.

2011-10-02T03:04:00.002+08:00

To Act Like Nothing Is Wrong.

TOP : Lets end it here. You make me feel that my life is indecent. Lets stop.

GIRL : I'll act better.
TOP : No. This is the End. Cant you see? We cant do this any longer. Get Out Of My Life!

Its d-d-dedicated.

Am I supposed to laugh, as if nothings wrong?

Each day passes by, as if nothings wrong?

Hey I havent called you in awhile.

I just called to say that Im sorry,and for that Im even more sorry.
Honestly, I dont have anything to say so, im just babbling.

I was wondering how you have been.

"What do you want? You are drunk again arent you?"

I dont want to hear it again, so I try hard to sound like Im okay.

You've become mute on the other side.

Because of the random things Im saying.

Whats so great about my crooked pride?

( I want to run to you but stil.. )

Its so hard but I try to act cool, as if nothing's wrong.

(if i could get rid of this affection )

(if i could get rid of this hatred )
Ma dear do you know that you are all I have

I realized that Im too late, im sorry ma boo

Am I supposed to laugh, as if nothing is wrong.

Each day passes by, as if nothings wrong.

Girl : As if nothings wrong, as if nothing going on.

Memories of you I once tried to erase, are starting to grow on me.

I need you come back.

I want to tell you truthfully.

My hearts heavy fallin', where are you.

I can never forget our first date ( why? )

Your birthday is still marked on my calender

Oh no, I dont believe.

People are saying my laughter has died.

There was a familiarity like a long lost friend.
We used to talk on the phone all night.

How did we have so many things to say back then.

How are you doing ?

The promises i werent able to keep still clings to my heart.

I worry about you a lot

You said it yourself, "You are too mean" .
whats the problem? Im still trying to figure things out.

like an idiot my regrets came too late.

( where you at? ) if you leave, what am i supposed to do?

Am I supposed to laugh, as if nothing is wrong.

each day passes by, as if nothing is wrong.

Girl : As if nothings wrong, as if nothing going on.

Memories of you I once tried to erase, are starting to grow on me.

TOP: Foolish girl, I didnt want to drag you into my indecent life of mine. Im sorry. Sorry.

Please smile alot more often, I hope you are much happier.

I'll watch you do well from afar, You'll fly a newly spread wings.

I'll pray that you'll be happy. I have no time, i run.

I live for a long time without even knwoing the date on the calender.

My heart doesnt stop burning but the clock still goes tick tick tock.

( as ever tick tick tock, tick tick tock.. )

Am I supposed to laugh, as if nothings wrong?

Each day passes by, as if nothings wrong?

Am I supposed to laugh, as if nothings wrong?

Each day passes by, as if nothings wrong?

Am I supposed to laugh, as if nothings wrong?

Each day passes by, as if nothings wrong?

TOP.

2011-10-02T02:32:00.002+08:00

Im so in love with TOP songs (':

The song were d-d-deciated to his ex-girlfriend. aww ~

TOP - To act like nothing is wrong.

Am I supposed to laugh, as if nothing is wrong.

Each day passes-by, as if nothing is wrong.

Hey I havent called you in awhile.

I just called to say that Im sorry,and for that Im even more sorry.
Honestly, I dont have anything to say so, im just babbling.

I was wondering how you have been.

"What do you want? You are drunk again arent you?"

I dont want to hear it again, so I try hard to sound like Im okay.

You've become mute on the other side.

Because of the random things Im saying.

Whats so great about my crooked pride?

( I want to run to you but stil.. )

Its so hard but I try to act cool, as if nothing's wrong.

(if i could get rid of this affection )

(if i could get rid of this hatred )
Ma dear do you know that you are all I have

I realized that Im too late, im sorry ma boo

Am I supposed to laugh, as if nothing is wrong.

I need you come back.

I want to tell you truthfully.

My hearts heavy fallin', where are you.

I can never forget our first date ( why? )

Your birthday is still marked on my calender

Oh no, I dont believe.

People are saying my laughter has died.

There was a familiarity like a long lost friend.
We used to talk on the phone all night.

How did we have so many things to say back then.

How are you doing ?

The promises i werent able to keep still clings to my heart.

I worry about you a lot

I wonder if you stay awake at night like I do.

and I feel sorry once again.

You said it yourself, "You are too mean" .
whats the problem? Im still trying to figure things out.

like an idiot my regrets came too late.

( where you at? ) if you leave, what am i supposed to do?

Am I supposed to laugh, as if nothing is wrong.

GIRL : You are no different from other guys.

why are you taking back what you have said before.

your future was more important to you.

I did everything your way. what do you want from me now?

TOP :If I say it, I'll be the bad guy.why dont you just call me a liar?

Girl : I'll hang up now and pretend I didnt hear that.

You dont know the nights I've spend contemplating.

You're crying because I-I say goodbye

You dont know the nights I've spend contemplating.

This song is not even half of my sorrow, uh-uh-uh.

BB Jacket

2011-10-01T22:57:00.001+08:00

Naise, right? Haha! Man, got to use english properly. Haha! This a girls jacket. Cost only $24. Went to Forever 21, it coat $40. hoho. Saidahhh! Buy with me :))

I miss boyf. blog

2011-10-01T05:58:00.001+08:00

His first post! Awww! ♥
Hahas. Still remember his botak days. This picture was taken inside MRT. last 2 years. He is so sweet! *melts*

conv. with love.

2011-09-25T02:18:00.004+08:00

cinta ku ada dua.

Satu kepada Allah, dan satu kepada mu (:

Only you. *insertlotsofheartshape*

I miss you! :)

VID & PHOTOS.

2011-09-25T01:52:00.002+08:00

One of the vid that i took. AHHHHHH.they are awesome

F1 BABYYYY !

2011-09-25T01:49:00.003+08:00

OKAY OKAY. GUESS WHUT ?

I WENT TO GD & TOP & VI CONCERTTTTTTTTTTTTTTTT!

DAEBAK. IM STILL DREAMING. OHMYYY.

GD LOOK FREAKING AWESOMEZX.

TOP LOOK FREAKING HANDSOME.

SEUNGRI IS SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO CUTE. OMO!

haha. big fan of Bigbang!

They went to ButterFactory? serious?! idk. lmao. haha!

p/s: i want to thank this abang yang beri permission untuk jejak ke fanzone. YAY! :D

Sniff.

2011-09-15T15:33:00.001+08:00

You told me to leave. You said goodbye. Why wont you make me stay? Why ?! )':

I want you. I need you. Im still madly in love with you. Why.. )':

boo?

2011-09-14T17:37:00.001+08:00

He went to JB. He knows my shoe size /: , thats weird.

he never ask me about it..

Sigh. Mak dia kirim salam.. Wa'alaikumussalam.

gi JB to buy for me stuffs, iye ke ? haha. tknk ade harapan ape2 lah.

follow the flow aje.

Should be studying IRK and Maths now. Oh my. ):

NAK KARAOKE ! :D

FIGHT!

2011-09-11T23:53:00.001+08:00

Fight this feeling(s).

I cant. I failed to do so. I dont have the heart to do so. I cant deny. I miss him. I love him. But he doesnt feel the same way as me.

I just wished, i didnt see those photos. Just wish..

WAHH.

2011-09-11T14:21:00.003+08:00

So many people come to my house today.

aiyoyo.

Masak Mee, Nasi and Mutton Chop.

Mutton Chop.. he loves it. Sigh )':

I just wish I could present him his wallet.

Its meant for him. No one else could have it.

But, I dont want to disrupt his new relationship with Her.

Im not a boyfriend stealer neither I am a relationship destroyer.

Aku redha.. Ya Allah )':

urm..

2011-09-11T14:18:00.002+08:00

So.. Ibu read my status at FB.

And ibu comment, ibu already know about it then.

Ibu asked me to delete all our pictures together and stop upload it.

I miss you, still.

Its been a day without you, my eyes are already swollen.

How am I supposed to live like this?

I just miss you, so much.

I wish you knew. Just wish you knew..

)':

*updating facebook, painfully.

Over.

2011-09-10T15:33:00.001+08:00

I cant deny that I still love you. Its hard for me to let you go. I cant imagine my life without you. But you had done something which you shouldnt. You had a choice but you didnt think it through. I.. I wish you all the best with her. I just cant trust you anymore. I admit, nobody's perfect. You choose this path. No matter how many chances i've given you, you still took me for granted.

I cant pretend not to care. I cant hold back from texting you. But you did nothing to save this r/s. All the best with her. Goodbye.
i'll love you,till the end even when you dont belong to me anymore, azynad for life (': 

Couldnt love anyone else.

Somebody.

2011-09-10T04:57:00.001+08:00

Its so obvious who you are -.-'

Kalau kau tknk dtg umah aku sudah ah. Aku pun tak sudi tuk kau datang. Leh rilek suaaaaa! Biar aku perangai mcm gni tapi aku tk pena aniaya sesape. Tak macam kau!

Kalau laki aku nak cari pompuan laen pun, ape kau susah ? Tak menyusahkan idop kau kan! Kau suro aku ubah? Kau sape tuk perintah aku?! Rilek sua bro.

Tuh sbblah tkde perempuan nak dengan kau. Bastard kau semua. Balasan. BALASAN! haha.

Kalau kau tak suke perangai aku, tuh kau nye pasal. Dengan segala hormatnya, boleh keluar dari hidup aku. Aku pun tak ingin kau wujud dalam hidup aku.

Kebencian aku dari dulu hingga sekarang, tak akan luput ! Kau jangan cube nak add aku alek kt FB.

2011-09-10T04:52:00.001+08:00

I cant do this anymore. I just cant. Its hard for me to accept all of this. It hurts so bad ! )':
What did i do wrong? What ?! Sigh )':
Im at my brealing point..

How could you..

2011-09-10T04:23:00.001+08:00

I trusted you! How could you do this to me ?!?!? How could you.. No wonder you are soooooooooo obsessed with your work ! Its because of her ! And you give me excuses about your manager and such. I cant trust you anymore ! I cant !

psst.

2011-09-10T00:26:00.002+08:00

So,psst.

You know something ? My Ex-boyfriend. Si Shahri tuh kan,

Supposed to come on Friday, last min tk jadi, kate nak datang on Sunday.

Pleaaaaaaaaase luhs !

Perangai, tak bole angkat sey.

Dah luh tk le ang dengan perangai dia.

Hanya Allah saje lah tahu betapa benci nyeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee aku kt dia =.='

Azy pun tau. eh bhy? -.-

090911

2011-09-10T00:21:00.002+08:00

Watching Smurf :D

It was funn ! SERIOUSLY!

Super-Funny! A MUST WATCH MOVIE.

I miss boyf. So much ):

LEPAK-ing.

2011-09-07T21:02:00.002+08:00

Today, 4 people only yang ikot jalan raye.

Pergi rumah asatizah lak.
wahh. nyari iqah blanje bnyk sey naek Taxi.
Wee ! :D

Syukran ya ukhti. Barakallahu fiik~ MasyaAllah :D

Kteorg pergi rumah, Ust. Raihanah , Ust. Sidah, Cikgu Mariam , Mdm Aini, Cikgu Masnia and 'Teacher' Atiqah. hehes.

lepak umah iqah from 7.30 until now. hehes. Melampau kayy kte.
Yang penting, tk overnight :p

Gamba ? esok luse kay ? haha.
BTW, first time maen Monopoly Deal, Siti menang seyy. PFFTT!

HAHAs. Iqah nye kuih-muih, SEDAP OR WHAT ! tak rugi datang. hehes.
12 years of friendship, oh yeah ~

nak alek nan Yunis naek 17 :D

060911

2011-09-07T21:01:00.002+08:00

Jalan raya with S4210.
Much misses them all ! <3

Gambar belum upload sebab skrg kt umah iqah. hehes.
Bukan laptop i, so, tkde hak ye nak bongkar documents org.
LOL.

kay, da start mepek.
haha. nak anuh new post. bubbye!

Happy 26th Monthsary !

2011-09-06T01:46:00.003+08:00

HAPPY 26TH MONTHSARY, BABY!

we've gone through our up and down together. I cant imagine my life without you. I miss you. I miss you so much that it kills me. You promise me that you'll never let me go, I'll never let you go too. You are the best that I've ever had. I never felt this way before. I love you, I really do - so much !

Im sure there are more obstacles that we need to overcome. Just promise me that we'll go through all this together. Thats all I ever need.

I hope I could meet you, soon. Your gift awaits you !

Happy 26th monthsary, babybotak ! I love you, Azrun Zainullah !

Only you!

SUPER JUNIOR IS THE BOOM!

2011-09-04T22:23:00.002+08:00

Watched this with my cousins and sis.

we screamed until I almost lost my voice. It was almost DAEBAK!

Saket tekak please.

Rindu boyf. kaylah, bubbye!

battery laptop abang da nak die. update again ~

SELAMAT HARI RAYA.

2011-09-03T04:41:00.002+08:00

YAY!

I know im late. oh well.

Wishing all Muslims out there,

Selamat Hari Raya Maaf Zahir Dan Batin !

Forgive me for all my wrongdoings and if I have hurt you or whatsoever.

Forgiveness is happiness okay ? hehes ! :D

I miss my boo. hoho.

Its over.

2011-06-09T03:39:00.001+08:00

I still love you.

I still miss you.

Dont tell me its over. I NEED YOU IN MY LIFE.

I cant live without you, I really cant.

Everyday and without fail, I think about you )':

I carve your name on my hands.

Im being such a worthless person, without you around )':

I cant stay strong anymore. )':

Happy 23rd Monthsary !

2011-06-06T06:45:00.002+08:00

Pssst ! HAPPY 23RD MONTHSARY, BABY !

Seems like it has been soooooooooooooo long since I last updated. exactly, 3 months ago?

hehes! Oh myy. I mish blogging. Seems like everyday im Tumbr-ing ! LOL.

Okay. So, today is like my special day with boyf.

We wanna watch Insidious , Eat at Swenson and buy BigBang shirt !

Im freaking missing boyf now.

Please takecare of yourself. Only 6 hours left to meet you. lambat blanje <3

HAPPY 20TH MONTHSARY ! :)

2011-03-06T00:04:00.002+08:00

We dont have much photos )':

Sorry for the photo repitition. But, what matter is we are together.

I love you, babybotak ! One and only.

InsyaAllah, we'll last long. I miss you like whaaaaaaaaaaaat ! :x

Meet up soon. Please ? :)

Just 4 more months and we are officially 2 years. O.o

hehs. I love you.

text meeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee ~ :)

Happy 19th Monthsary :)

2011-02-06T02:35:00.003+08:00

I love you, the name on the sand :)

I really do. * blow the dust awayy*

I didnt expect us to go this far. Its beyond from what I've imagine.

We've gone through alot of things and experience alot of things.

Doing things that I never knew that I can do it. Thank you.

For coming into my life and giving me so many chances.

You watch me fall, and I fall into your arms.

Thank you, for coming into my life.

Now, you are telling me that you are serious with me.

Your words and actions lately make me cry, with tears of touched.

I love you, Azrun (",)

He said,

2011-01-25T13:58:00.001+08:00

I HAD ENOUGH OF YOU AND YOUR EMOTIONALS.

oh,okay then. Thanks for telling me that you had enough of me,

I guess, this is good bye huh? Alright then. Takecare.

We are A Okay !

2011-01-14T01:35:00.002+08:00

So we are officially A-Okay !

He asked me to be his gf again for the fourth time, yippee !

So, he regret regarding his actions and words about leaving me, blah2.

Same goes for me.Im sorry )':

You should have seen his text, he make me go gagagagagaggagaga over him !! xD

But, I wont let you read his text, boo ! Find your own boyfriend,people.

Im missing him so much. Im loving him ! I really do )':

Hopefully, I get to meet him this time round, today. From morning till evening. Maybe ?

I love you,boyfriend ! (",)

is this goodbye ?

2011-01-13T18:22:00.001+08:00

DONT GO !

PLEASE.

I STILL LOVE YOU.
)':

Come back?

Sorry bloggy.

2011-01-13T13:11:00.002+08:00

I know I know,
lately Im soooo into tumblr.
And, I kept forgetting about you. But then, I check you out every single day.
I'll update you too, okay ? (:
Im still searching for blogskins lah bloggy. Sabar ye ?

So, He ditched me again and again, and again. its no surprise.
I lose my top and I was like being such a bitch to him and blame him.
I get so mad and i was being like this, !@#$%^& to him. Im so sorry. I love you, still.

No matter how much I tell you, I love you. You wont forgive me, right ? I know.
I have low self-esteem and confidence. Im always scared to lose you to others.
Thats why Im being over-protective. But then, i realize.. you dont like it that way.
So, I choose to let things go.. You choose. To make or to break.
Cause, I dont know whats happening to our relationship.

Today, I thought of celebrating our 18th month together.
already wrapped up your gift and going to make it a wonderful day.
There's no start, not even and ending. So, i dont know.

Even though, you choose to leave me, you'll always be in my heart.
Even though, you choose not to leave me, I'll always be thankful.

I dont have that much mood to eat. And my stomach is cramping up.
Im going to ITE nightclasses and it starts on February. Hope I dont meet anyone I know there.

Pick up my calls, reply my text. Im sorry.

Uh-oh.

2011-01-10T04:20:00.002+08:00

Oink Oink Oink !

Today are results day, im freaking nervous and I cant sleep !
I want to Qiyamulail today, but I need to sleep. I cant. Oh boy Oh boy.
Texting boyfie, but he never reply, must be busy with his work. I pity you )':

I dream i got alot of F9, like serious *sssshhh it (: *
And, what makes it even more weirder, My whole family and boyfie, seems to have high hope and confidence in my results. Boohoo )':
Why are you all being like this, it makes me feel guilty even more !

Must wear uniform. Reaching school at 1pm. Results at 2pm.
Im scared. Poly open at 3pm. Boyfie MAYBE fetching me at 2.30pm.
Uh-oh. Im scared. I really am. Wish I could hug boyfie now ))':

I think Im going to take a short nap, 10 mins is enough, I guess.
I just need to recap to do for later. hahas !

Lately, boyfriend are acting all strange. He has changed, for the better.
I need to get used to this, not saying taking advantage, but the feeling is nice (:
And, thank you for giving me all the couraging words and strength to keep our relationship on going and to trust even more on both of us.
Yeah, he may be busy with his work and family , but he still contacting me. That matters.
Nad sayaaaaang Azy ! (:

I want sleep !

p/s : I dont like anonymous stalker, so, do tell me who you are alright? (:
No animals or human will be harmed, if you tell me your identity. But again, not forcing ^^

BTW,

im more active in tumblr. Yeah \m/

You can follow me or ask,ask,ask me @ ...

www.kacangangos.tumblr.com !

**29 January, love has been booked by his beloved BLAZE, and I cant follow. Boohoo !
nevermind, what matter is, you enjoy yourself alright, baby ? Muacks. I love you !

HAPPY 18th.

2011-01-06T00:27:00.003+08:00

So yeah, Happy 18th Monthsary love.

Wow. I've never been this long and seems like, we just started to get to know each other.

And now, Im currently wearing the clothes that you once ask me to be your girlfie.

it bring back all those memories, the day before you went to NS.

Now, your career are important. I wish you all the best, baby.

Give me time to understand you, the new you. You've changed alot.

And, we've changed for the better. Love? Thank you for everything, changes and all.

So, we may not be hanging out all the time and spending alot time together.

But, nevertheless, you'll always be in my heart and mind 25/7.

I hope, we could snap some alot of photos together. I miss you.

Hopefully, we could meet up soon.

There only one guy and that is you, Azy Shazwan Zainullah. Saranghae.

First day of School.

2011-01-04T23:23:00.001+08:00

Awww.
Today is first day of school.
When I went out just now, ALOT OF STUDENTS LEYY.
I miss my uniform, *sniff* !
Seeing my sister wearing the same uniform, I kinda shed a tear.

Sudah besar ye, wahai Nana.
Hope you do well and do your best.
Cause, secondary life is not easy as you thought it would be.
I've struggle and still didnt make it. Make our parents proud, love.

So, Im scared and freaking nervous of my results.
But boyfriend ensure me that he'll stick with me even if daddy bombard him with nonsensical things. I hope you would stick with me and our promise to be together in the end, will be achieved. I love you so much.

Saw linati just now. Gosh, I miss her ! (:

FYL.

2011-01-04T22:51:00.003+08:00

its not gonna be FML , its gonna be,

FCUK YOUR OWN FREAKING LIFE, ASSHOLE !

To this one guy, whom I already mention in my tumblr,

Get your fcuking face away from my sight !

You disgust me, freak!

FYL ! FYL ! FYL !

Not you babylove, my love for you will never change.

tumblr?

2011-01-02T22:10:00.002+08:00

oh my Allah.

Im so dont know how to handle with tumblr.
I thought it was easy ? Aigooo ! stress la weyy.
I think, I'll let laptop be abit better than I can do it better.
I just put one post about AZYNAD. So yeah, thats all i think.
You can just help me out if you can,

www.kacangangos.tmblr.com .

And baby,
hopefully you can join us tomorrow.
I love you, baby ! muacks.

Shopping with cousin was awesome!

2011-01-02T17:25:00.001+08:00

So yeah,
As its just 2 days away before school reopens!
Zaman bile mau skola babe? Haha ! So yeaahh.. 9 more days to result. Oh gosh ! Oh gosh ! Scaredd ! ):

We went to Bugis and Tampines ! We bought 2 pair of shoes. ,identical. Jiwe babe. Hahas ! So, at Tampines , I bought Winnie The Pooh bag. Hehes. Sorry, temptation are freaking hard to resist. It cost me $20. Like woaaah. Mcm baru dpt gaji gitu. Zzz.

Waiting for boyfriend to reply, haizz !
Tomorrow go grandlink with mummy , again! Yeah!
And, need to head back to office to give the $$.

Thinking of using tumblr. Should i? *thinking*

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Feel like it,

2010-12-30T00:48:00.002+08:00

He is not perfect. And no he will never be.

But because he is imperfect, I love him.

He may lack in many ways but one thing he doesnt lack off, is his love for me.

His attitude may be such a stuck-up not to forget his ego.

But then, once you get to know him and love him, you would bear with it.

With a glimmer of hope that he would one day change for the better.

Thats what Im doing now.

I love you. I tried to let you go but I failed to do so.

You did not just conquer my heart and soul but my world too (:

So love, I hope you'll change your attitude but dont rush yourself.

Just think about me and my feelings, thats more than enough.

Like you said, we'll get through this. WE PROMISE.

And, we'll do anything what it takes to make our relationship better.

p/s : Im reverting back to my old-self. Jiwang-jiwang, here I come (:

lost, with a blink of an eye.

2010-12-28T15:56:00.001+08:00

When a love comes to an end, weaklings cry, efficient ones instantly find another love, and the wise already have one in reserve.
-Oscar Wilde

And I'm in the weakling category.

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lost, with a blink of an eye.

2010-12-28T15:50:00.001+08:00

Quote

And I'm in the weakling category.

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Di hujung kekuatan..

2010-12-28T12:50:00.001+08:00

You know,
Kata-kata hanya tinggal kata. Walaupun mudah dilafazkan, sukar untuk buktikan. Tegarkah kau buatku sedemikian ?
Hatiku merintih siapa yang tahu ? Airmata ku menitis, siapa yang peduli? Aku kecewa, tiada siapa yang memandang.

Aku korbankan segalanya untuk dirimu,
Waktu,masa,diri dan hak. Dan bagaimanakah dengan dirimu?
Segalanya silapku. Apa, kau rujuk aku balik dikirakan silapku?

Begitu mudah kau minta putus dan berkata-kata..
Tapi adakah kau tahu betapa peritnya ku rasa? Ku ungkap kata cinta untukmu sepanjang lautan asia pasifik, sedikit pun tidak kau hiraukan.

Ya Allah ! Seandainya dia tercipta untuk ku, kau berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk hadapi cabaran yang Engkau bakal berikan. Dan seandainya dia bukan tercipta untukku, kau berikanlah aku kekuatan untuk menerima suratan takdir-Mu..

Dia bukan kekasihku yang pertama namun, dia cinta pertamaku.

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back to 30th June (",)

2010-12-28T11:12:00.001+08:00

My One And Only

Since the day we first met,

I knew it was love,

God answered my prayers,

you came down from above...

You gave me your heart,

and taught me to trust,

for the first time ever,

it was more than just lust...

Your sweet loving words,

are not to be compared,

I am forever your partner,

my soul I have bared...

Every day I wake up,

with a smile a mile long,

I know that we are solid,

I know that we are strong...

So never put into question,

my feelings being true,

because I have found my one and only,

And I will always love you.

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love is..

2010-12-27T22:07:00.002+08:00

B-E-A-U-T-I-F-U-L

Love is like a rumour, everyone talks about it but no one knows.

Im tired of playing games, i really am.

How many more days must I cry so you could understand ?

I never ask for anything in return , just dont do this to me. How could you ?

Didnt you said that you love me ?

And wanting me to be the mother of your child and be the wife of you.

Was that all just words to pleased me ?

You say one thing and do another.

Im tired of playing your game, I want you to be serious. THINK STRAIGHT.

What ? You think i have no feelings at all ? You stripped me off most of my rights to do the stuffs that i like. I bear with it because I love you. Its worth sacrificing it to see you smile. But, what now ? In the end, no matter what i've already sacrifice for you, you can still say that you want to get away from me. What do you think I would feel ? I have feelings too.

You say you are a monster.

Do you know , even monster know how to protect their loved ones.

You should watch Monster Inc. it works.

I dont know how or what else I must say to convince you. Everything I do is all wrong in your very eyes. Im lost. I admit, I've been defeated. Right now, Im chuckling to myself. Seeing how you dont even care about me. Hahas. Wow. This must be a one big wave hitting on me.

With this problems, I find that Im laughing to myself.

Instead of clearing things up and making things better, you chose to make the small matter to a big matter. I've tried giving in but you never did. Even if i didnt forgive you, shouldnt you think you put in more effort to make me forgive you ? Or , you just dont even bother ? Knowing that I would come running to you in the end.

Im sorry if you dont like this post. Reflect on yourself, why .

Whenever we try to meet, you would always find fault with me. i dont know why.

Im lost, super lost.

If you think, leaving me could make you happy, by all means.

I love you and all I ever want for you was to be happy. I admit im nobody to you.

I AM NOBODY.

O level,

2010-12-27T21:50:00.002+08:00

For you, I will do anything.

1 MORE MONTHS TILL O LEVEL RESULTS.

NO CONFIDENCE.boohoo.

Need to pack my stuffs like,ASAP.

Oh, Hello.

2010-12-26T13:49:00.001+08:00

Im back !

Laptop seems to be on MC.
As it got some illness due to its mouseyy now.
Haiz. Get well okay, laptop ? (:
Me and Nana miss you manymany.
Be well, or not I need to work for 2 more months to buy new one.

Okay. I already reactivate back my facebook.
And, I saw alot of things that I shouldnt see.
Fadhli are now attached, good for you ! Get married soon.
Syaakirah seems to be doing well with her boyfriend.
Ayien is happy with her fellow friends who seem to be appearing after O's.
And, boyfriend change his relationship status. *ouch!* niiice ~

I dont know how or why,
but my relationship seems to be in the rocks.
Im trying my best to endure all this things. But, he is always not there to help me gain from my confidence and lately, its damn hard trying to reach him. I miss him and our pasts.
Why love ? whats wrong with you ? Im sacrifing everything but why are you still doing this to me ? I love you, thats why I endure with your attitude.

"I'd catch a grenade for ya

Throw my hand on a blade for ya

I'd jump in front of a train for ya

You know I'd do anything for ya

I would go through all this pain

Take a bullet straight through my brain

Yes, I would die for you, baby

But you won't do the same."

- Bruno Mars ; Grenade.

Now, he is still unreachable. Why boyfriend ? Get your mind, straight ! Haiz.
Im confused and lost. i dont know what else I must do to improve this relationship.
And when he read this, he would thought of letting go of our r/s. Dont do that, please.

Alright. I need to go now.
Im off to Expo. Not meeting boyfriend or anyone today.
And, will go home alone like I always do at night.
Bye people, drop off at EXPO , HALL 6 , yeah !

-A W A Y-

2010-12-24T22:49:00.002+08:00

I've deactivated my facebook until further notice.
Its okay afterall having no facebook.
To avoid further conflicts with boyfriend.

My laptop seems to have some problems.
So, I'll doubt that I can ever on regularly.
Trying to find help to repair this thing. Hopefully, by tomorrow.

So, I got no free incoming calls.
And, currently im feeling super lousy.
And and, I got no one to turn to currently.

FML.

Stressed out with boyfie, getting some air.
So, bye people. Anything just text (:

23.12.10

2010-12-24T02:10:00.002+08:00

Oh, did i tell you ?

I watch Tron with boyfriend @ E-Hub yesterday.

It was 2hrs and 5 mins. I almost fall asleep.

Because I dont understand the story line, zzz.

Thanks boyfriend for explaining it to me, hehes !

I rate it 3 stars ?

I cry at the movies, what the fish paste.

It has a sad ending okay, cant help myself.

And, boyfriend are startled byt my cry-ness. grr.

Less than 10 people watch siaa. what the what seyy !

Alright, boyfriend want to watch Movies again on Saturday.

Yogi bear? hahas. So cute lah boyfriend !

Alright, Im going to sleep and meet boyfriend at LalaLand.

Nights, baby ! And if anyone kind enough, do wake me up at 7am.

THANKS ! (:

Marry me, Mary !

2010-12-24T02:03:00.002+08:00

So yeah, after I got back from my Malaysia Trip,
I went head over heals with this korean drama. I thought it might be bored, guess I was wrong.
It only have 16 episodes, compare to Sungkyunkwan Scandal, it has 20 episodes.
Oh well, all good thing must come to an end right ? )':

This drama has got my favourite artist, Moon Geun and Jang Geun Seuk !
Sorry, my spelling names of korea is not that good either.
I cant get any beauty sleep because of this. HAHA.
And, im only at episode 12 , 4 more together.

Alright, need to get some shut eye.
Cause I'll be working today at Masjid Jami' Julia.
Before that, I need to look at the map first. *yawn*

Boyfriend must be worried that im still not sleeping.
Sorry boyfriend ):
Im going to sleep soon, super soon ! Okay ?
I miss you. Meet you up, tomorrow !

Bye Bye MBS.

2010-12-21T12:56:00.001+08:00

So ..
Thats the end of my holiday at MBS. I went to the Sky Park for a swim, it was fun. Really ! So we check out at around 12am.
Im currently stuck at Rivervalley, Nasi Padang one. They say its delicious, so must try one. Haha.
Boyfie, take me out to this place can? (:
Speaking about boyfie, he's very lethargic lately due to his workplace. Pity boyfie. Get alot of rest, alright? I love you!

I miss my colleague and boyfriend.
Meet you up, soon !

Should i activate back my facebook? Sigh.

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2010-12-20T16:05:00.003+08:00

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Holiday 2010

2010-12-20T16:05:00.001+08:00

So yeah, after came back from Shah Alam, i got family holiday.
Not far, just at Marina Bay Sand. I tell you, its super duper huge! Not to mention the facilties and room. Wahh!
Tak ble angs.
Boyfriend, when we get married, can we go there? Please ):
Pictures will be uploaded by tomorrow, hopefully.
Im at SkyPark marina bay sand. Hahas. Not gonna swim. Lazy.

P/s : dont call my number ,i got no incoming call. Thanks! Just texxt me.

Kay, i dont feel good. Im gonna tuck in ,infront of the swimming pool. I miss boyfriend !

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Im nothing.

2010-12-20T01:33:00.003+08:00

and before you know it,
its over between me and him - with just a blink of an eye.

How could you let things go, after our 18 months of ordeal.
Just like that ? Because I tell other people about your blog link?
You can privatise it if you are unhappy or delete your blog or even so, you can tell me to delete that particular post at facebook.

I've already deactivate my facebook account.
Anything to do with me, just text or give me a call.

And when you told me that you want to go,
all I could ever do was crying and begging you not to go.
Upon read your blog and our blog, seems to me like you dont even care.
When once you promise me that you'll never leave me.
Promise is just a promise, I see?

Goodbye, Azrun.
Goodbye, Azynad.
Goodbye, Babybotak.
Goodbye, for the past memories of 18 months.

Im done with everything.
I wont blog or facebook anymore, until Im okay.
Goodbye, everyone.

M.I.A

2010-12-02T03:21:00.001+08:00

- B U S Y -

Working , Working and Working.

Will update if Im totally free.

Demi Allah aku berkerja keras untuk melaksanakan amanahku.

InsyaAllah, Amin.

NOVEMBER 20

2010-11-23T01:02:00.002+08:00

MARINA BARRAGE &

WATER PLAYGROUND,PLEASE !

So yeah, right after we got our results and boom,

the next day we got our own outing.

Pictures have been uploaded at Fb and has been private.

Only 4210 girls are allowed, thats what the outing are meant for right ?

Only 8 people went to the outing , and where are the remaining 6 ? ):<

Dont worry, I've make a videeo for all of you.

I hope you would enjoy it but then, I cant upload it.

Give me time, alright ? I'll find a way to upload it.

It was fun.

The food was delicious.

The water wwas chlorine-ified.

The lepaking was undescribable.

@#$%^&* , to the groups who disturb me.

Find someone on your own size, jerks !

Hope we'll have our second outing. I cant wait.

I miss you all. Its weird, kinda. HAHA.

I love you, 4210.

NOVEMBER 22

2010-11-23T00:52:00.003+08:00

I watch this with boyfriend @ Filmgarde Iluma.

Boyfriend love that cinema cause its the first cinema we've ever been to.

I know, he is freaking sweet right ? That place is expensive though.

Boyfriend, boyfriend. tsk tsk tsk.

We watch it at 2:15pm and end at 4:40pm.

We walk to Fo Lou Shaw Complex and Bencoolen.

Walk around at Bugis for awhile and head back to the carpark.

Love taught me how to move the joss manual car thingy.

LIVE , while he was driving, I was super scared and make alot of mistakes.

Dont do that anymore, okay boyfriend?

Head back home.

Spend 20 mins time with love.

4 more days to go and your present, still havent bought yet. Opps.!

NOVEMBER 19.

2010-11-21T16:42:00.002+08:00

Oh, its friday and its report book day !
How dreadful.

Overall, I pass ^^
But I got 5 failing subjects.
THATS THE WORST THING EVER HAPPEN IN MY LIFE. fishpaste.

" Failure is a step to success. "
i'll bounce back, I'll promise. I'll do even better in poly.
I'll make you proud, boyfriend and mum & dad.

Afterwards, 9 girls from 4210 eat breakfast @ Hajjah Maimunah.
We had a fun time , $48 was spend. It was worth it though.
And to our much surprise, Mum & Dad Syaff was there too. hahas.
And, not to forget our dear Ustaz, Mosthofa & Dhiyaa' :)

Im gonna miss you all teacher. Goodbye. We'll meet one day, soon.

NOVEMBER 18.

2010-11-21T16:39:00.002+08:00

Boyfriend bought for me a new phone.

Goodbye Satio ,
Hello HTC Desire Z :)

Thank you boyfriend. We may not have the same phone though.
But boyfriend, we'll always be the same in our heart and love.
Thank you for the sim card, too :)

NOVEMBER 16 [2].

2010-11-21T16:17:00.003+08:00

" Forget about the past, Lets start anew. "

- Boyfriend.

So, he insist on buying a new ring.

And I recommend him to buy at Couple Lab,

We bought the ring at Bugis Iluma Couple Lab.

cause its much cheaper than the last time we bought our first ring.

This cost us $88 for a pair of ring.

The last time was nearly about $100 for a pair of ring.

And in any case, I've broke boyfriend's ring into three pieces.

Boyfriend said, let this show how my heart has been broken into.

I cried frantically, begging him not to leave me. And he didnt :')

And I was glad about it. Sorry boyfriend. You started it l:

I didnt know I got such strength, hehes !

I still kept our first ring. Thank you for the ring. i love it :)

NOVEMBER 16.

2010-11-21T16:10:00.002+08:00

Officially ended my O level.
Sastera paper 1 was the last paper.
It was kinda easy, kinda okay ?

Boyfriend team wants to treat us to a Buffet Lunch.
It was located at the Hyatt Hotel's. Photos are with him.
From 12 - 2pm, if im not wrong, we reach a little late.
Cause we got lost on the road. LOL, thanks boyfriend -.-'
The heels are killing me and the blister cut are super deep.
Waited for boyfriend about 2 hours ? He overslept, toooooooot.
After the lunch and get-to-know session,
we walk around at the Orchard for awhile together. haha.

It was nice knowing all of you.
Thank you, boyfriend for introducing me to them.
Now you are really serious, wow ;0

Soon to be mine.

2010-11-15T01:14:00.002+08:00

Yeah. Im waiting for this.

How can this be out-of-stock ? It has just been launched !

Seems like it's as spicy as iPhone 4 ? Oh myy.

Please please please, be mine soon.

If i already got a job, I would pay you back okay ?

I hope, I'll stick with this phone for a longer time. After a year I might change it.

Hopefully all is well and everything is good.

The music and camera itself,hopefully.

@ BEDOK.

Past few days..

2010-11-15T01:01:00.003+08:00

This is what I've done for the past few days.

One day, Im shopping for clothes and the next day, shoes.

OH MY ALLAH !

How can I be this spend thrift ? But, going with him, makes my day.

Not saying Im happy that he pay for it FULLY.

But, we shop t o g e t h e r , he also buy his stuffs.

It felt like we are a real couple, y'know (':

You've never treat me this way. It feels weird but Im loving it.

You've spend almost $100 a day for me. Im touched by it.

We meet almost every day and thats the amount that you would spend on me.

Ohh, thank you. I feel bad. And, you give me money some more.

Im sorry Im acting like a bitch. I really am though.

I'll improve on myself. I cant promise but I'll do my best.

You've changed your status andd looking for in FB, awwwww.

Meet you up,soon! ♥

p/s : READ THIS IF YOU ARE STALKING ME, ANIS ! HAHAHAHA !

10th NOVEMBER.

2010-11-11T23:49:00.003+08:00

OUTING WITH THE BEST GIRLS.

w/ Anis & Wawa from RYC ♥

So, we are supposed to meet at 2.15 at Somerset Mrt.
In the end, Anis was the last to come , she come at 3.15pm.
HAHAHA. Im not the last to reach there.
Afterwards, we walk and walk and went to Orchard ION.
And we watched MEGAMIND at Cineleisure Orchard. $6 each thanks to Nebo-ians.
Haha. be thankful to me okay girls ? :)

We walked at the Orchard and walk all the way to Far East Plaza.
So we eat at Cahaya Restaurant at there. hahas.
So, we have alot of picstures to upload but facebook is making a problem for me _l_.
MUAHAHAHAHHAHAH. I miss you both. Meet me up soon,again.

I had a great time. We had a great time. Thanks for the time.
I love you both, many many.
Secrets arre being told, stories are being shared, memories are being kept.
Thanks for coming into my life and willing to spend time with me.
muacks. xoxo.

We went back home at 6:50pm. I reach home at 7:50pm.
The MRT was like, SUPER PACK. walao wei ~

I miss you both.

8th NOVEMBER

2010-11-09T12:20:00.003+08:00

Pffffffffft.
5 more paper until Im freeeeeeeeeeeee.
YAY ! *stepping mcm independance gitukk. hahas !

KAY AH.
aku tahu ah aku habis lambat. takpe kan Syaff ?
Esok bahasa melayu agyy !

Semalam after habis paper,
kita pergi skola jap. for fun je uh.
ternampak la plak Ust. Orfiyah , Ust. Esah, Ust. Rozana , Cikgu Mariam,
Sir Sufi , Sir Haidad and Sir Hakim.
Mati woo. kena tangkap psl pakai seluar extreeeeeeeeeeeeme ketat.

But first and foremost, kita makan breakfast dkt SP.
aku kena kacau agy dgn mamat MCD tuhh.
Fed-up seyy, dari dua tahun laluuu. grrr.

afterwards, shireen and fatimah teman me to Bedok.
Just to help me to look for new shoe :)
Thank you ! In the end,
with the help of Linati , last min punye jumpe,
I bought one shoe. SUPERNICE.
Cost me about.. $19.90.
First time beli sendiri dokk, tk kire uh kasut skola. haha.

btw, terjumpe ustazah and ust :)
SYAFAAAAAAAAAAAH ! Ku rindumu. hahah.
And, saw abang Dicky and this one pakcik.
kenal jugak eh dorg kt aku. HAHHAHA.
went back home, Daddy was painting at the door.

Kena baju and bag. boohoo )':

kay. im having my fun time nooooooooooow. ~
will post pics later on. SEE YA SOON.

p/s : 2PM is loved ! :)

SUJI !

2010-11-06T22:23:00.004+08:00

YAY ! I bake this Suji Cookies.

I dont know why but Mum ask me to do.

So yeah, im done. With a little help from her though.

I've make 4 and a half bottles. Hehes.

Mum ask me to give one to Azy.

My heart totally drop, so I tell her.

ME : " Azy is history lah ibu. Dah takde kene mengena pun. Dia ada hidup dia sendiri,terpulang."

IBU : " kau nie japjap ade, japjap takde."

ME : " Sekarang CONFIRM dah takdelah buu. No worries, dah ade pegganti pun."

IBU : " Ah ye. Bagus lah. Kau dengan Azy, kau aje bodoh nk melekat dengan dia. Padahal dia da ade pompuan laen. Bodoh kan kau ! "

ME : " lalalala~ "
IBU : " Ah, kau bagi dia lah ni suji. "

ME : " Oh okay ^^ "

So yeah. IM DONE & OVER WITH IT.

I've move on with him :)

TEXT MEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE ! ):

4th NOVEMBER.

2010-11-06T17:41:00.003+08:00

After I sent Mr.Anthony's book, I met him.

I took bus number 23 to go to Tampines Mall.

We met around like.. 6.45pm - 10pm.

This was our second meeting and we had a great time.

In actual case, I learnt alot about him.

And, he had learnt alot about me too. I hope there wont be anymore misunderstanding.

This had been a fun and enjoyable night I spend with him.

Thanks for the treat at Starbucks. *winkwink.

What makes it more funnier that ..

The RYC Committee member, was at E!hub.

Afterwards , Acap and 2 of his friends went into my house and saw us under void deck.

Abang Rab and Zulammar was also at my void deck.

So, he went home abruptly. leaving me alone. boohoo )':

Dont do that to me , nxt time okay love ? :)

Oh. I miss him.

Cant wait for Tuesday to come soon !

Not Scary Enough.

2010-11-03T20:40:00.004+08:00

I watch this with ehemehem :)
Thanks for treating me. Even if this is our first time meeting after RYC.
Who is this ehemehem ? let's just remain it unknown.
Only two people know. HAHAHHAS. too bad.

I had a great time. The show is not scary just shocking.
Thanks for treating me dinner at KFC.
It took me 1 hour to finish eating. LOL.
And, all those tak perlu reaction, oh myy, makes my day - totally.

You make me smile alot.
My cheeks are now hurting,hahas.
Thanks for the treat and laughter. Dont cry anymore okay ? :)

THANK YOU !

Met with Hafiz Junied and Ayien and Ayien's abang angkat.
Nice meeting you, though. Had a great time.
Thanks Hafiz for membontot-ing me :)
We'll have our part two Study Sastera. After 12. Cant wait !

P-E-R-A-N-G-A-I

2010-11-02T23:34:00.002+08:00

OH,macam gini lah ekh ?

dengan ilmu pun korang nak lokek ? ape salahnya korang bilang kita ?

takmo bagi alasan yang merepek ah cakap korang lupa lah, tak ingat lah. eh, kita tak bodoh lah. dengar2 korang hebohkan dekat FB abe, dengar2 kita takde FB ape ? IMPOSSIBLE KORANG LUPA ! eh, please ah. Nak tipu dengan si penipu. OH PLEASE.

This is not the first time. This is not the second time.

Not a single person bilang kita. Kita kena datang kt korang.

korang tahu yang kita pun ade busy schedule. Apesal korg tkde initiative ?

aku tanye korang, ape salah nya ? ape salah nya ?

korang taknak tengok kite berjaya ? korang nak markah lebih ? korang tak puas hati dengan kita ? ape lagi ? ape lagi ? aku tahu, kita nye class bnyk perselisihan faham. tapi, korang tak kisahkan pasal pelajaran kita ?

APA PUNYA KAWAN ?!

SATU SEN PUN TAK BOLEH UAT PAKAI !

You've move on, so do i.

2010-11-02T20:51:00.000+08:00

Ever since our break-ups, I've since to this melody kind of song. One of the best was sang by kyla.

I know I'll move on. I wont be meak like the last time. I'll show you.

We were never meant.

2010-10-31T00:52:00.003+08:00

Its sad to see, its sad to hear.

For the past 16 months.
We have been together. We have done many things together.
Everything we done was our first-time experience.
I was so happy because that person was you.

But how come, you dont feel the same way ?
Why didnt you protect me and my heart ?
Didnt we already plan for our future together ?
You even told me that you wanted me to be the mother of your children.
Why wont you meant what you say.. ?
You should know that, I love you and only you.

Treat me right, or another guy will.
Appreciate me, or another guy will.
Love me sincerely, or another guy will.

I chose you over hundredths of guys. Why wont you do the same ?
You broke your promise more than I can remember.
You never say sorry whenever you did wrong.
You embarassed me infront of your friends.
I dont mind it at all as long as you with me.

But you hurt me deeply.
You told me that you were willing to change for me, you and us.
I was overwhelmed by your words.
But i forgot that, words are only words.
You never meant what you said. hehs. i forgot.

I'LL NEVER BELIEVE YOUR WORDS AGAIN UNLESS YOU PROVE IT TO ME.

im sorry, you pushed me until i become like this.
dont blame me. Reflects upon your words and actions.

I still love you.
Im too hurt by you, now.

Yay (:

2010-10-31T00:08:00.002+08:00

Mummy was being supernice.
Upon my first visit to that accompany my parents to pasar.

I've bought two clothes.
Total is $32. hees !
Thank you abang, for lowering the price.
Yeah, the dress is so sophisticated. I love it mummy! :)

Im going to wear that dress on Monday.
I dont care. And mummy give me two additional of her clothes.
Baige and brown. So not my colour. LOLS.
Thanks anyway mummy. I love you!

I had a great time.
As a token of appreciation, Im going to accompany them every Saturday.
if i have the time, InsyaAllah :)

p/s : Im having an emotional breakdown now )':

RINDU SAMA ITU SILAM.

2010-10-30T02:15:00.003+08:00

Babybotak.♥

Your hair has grown so much.

From the first day I met you, you hair was super long and very curly. It was cute. I alamost mistook you for a female. Hehes. Sorry though. When we were attached, your hair was totally gone. As, you need to enter the NS and served our beloved country,Singapore.

I waited. and waited. and waited. and waited.

You hair has grown and need to shave off,again.

And until now, Your hair has grown so much and become fluffier.

I read your blog and our blog.

Everything was updated on 2009.

I cried everytime I look at our and your blog.

Reminiscing the past, it hurts along with a smile.

I miss our past. The time where I could feel our love was super deep.

Where we can't live without each other, missing each other and making it hard to live.

I miss you.

I want us to be like last time.

Can you ?

Treat me like im your little princess, again ?

For you. For me. For our future.

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21st :)

2010-10-30T02:07:00.003+08:00

Hello abang angkat ku yang tersayang.

Happy 21st Birthday.

Sannah hilwah :)

Semoga Allah murahkan rezeki dan panjangkan umur abang.

And, senyum selalu ye bang.

I know, life is hard.

Endure it okay ? I know you can.

Hwaiting ! :)

Meet me up soon okay ?

So you'll get your birthday present.

Text me when you know you could make it.

p/s : 10th November , Im not free.

hatiku ditembak oleh senapang.

2010-10-27T20:46:00.003+08:00

kecewa yang teramat giler babxxzxz punye.

Sayang, ku menyintai dirimu seadanya.
Sayang, ku akan merindui dirimu senantiasa.
Sayang, tiada siapa yang dapat mengganti tempatmu.
tetapi..

*CrAAAAAAAAAAAAAACKS*

my heart has been broken.

You've hurt me, I was broken into pieces.
But, I pull my socks and gain the confidence to forgive you.
You raised your voice at me, I was shock. I didnt know what to say.
I hid my tears and in the end,I failed to do so.
I cant cr infront of my parents. Thus, it pains me.

"Dont waste my time" , thats what you said.
I was speechless, totally speechless. How could you say that.. ?
So, should I stay or go ? Tell me.
You didnt reply my text, even if i call, you are going to shout at me.
Stop all this shits. Please. This pains me.
This is heart-wrecking.

I love you, tell me soon.
So, whats happen to our date on the October 30th ?

Baby Yoogeun

2010-10-25T03:51:00.004+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY , YOOGEUN !

SHINee-appas must be very happy for you,yoogeun.

You've grown so tall within a year. Appas must miss you alot.

Yoogeun, make sure stay healthy okay? :)

Grow up soon, so you can become like appas!

Eat alot like Onew-Appa.
Dance like Taemin-Appa.

Become tall like Minho-Appa.
Become charismatic like Key-Appa.
Become stylish like Jonghyun-Appa.

Become aegyo like BABY YOOGEUN!

Saranghae, baby yoogeun.

Overcome the hurdles in the future. Hwaiting!

SUpport SHINee-appas when you can talk and understand.

dae? (:

trust.the.love.that.has.been.given.

2010-10-22T17:52:00.004+08:00

You should know, boy.
How much I love you and how much I adore you.

We've been through the worst. We have gone through so many things together.
You should know that, all of that shits that bring us more closer.
Sometimes it bring us closer and sometime it pull us down. But love, have you ever notice?
If our love has never fade, not even once, dont you think we were made for each other ?

The places that we went to,

The stuffs that we once had,

The bed that we once lie together,

All the memories that we have created.

And when you whisper, " I love you " .
I was held in your arms, tight around me.
Fits with those moment and the atmosphere.
I was stuck in with your love-world & when our eyes tangled,
Our lips began to meet and things happen behind the closed door.

Trust is like a mirror ;

you can fix it if its broken,

but the scar can still be seen.

This quote is from Lady Gaga & Beyonce.

I love you, babybotak.
I've watched your hair and yourself grow.
We could go far from here, InsyaAllah.
Only you, you, you and no one else :)

Rings around our fingers.

2010-10-20T22:49:00.003+08:00

lotsaloooooove :)

This is what I engraved on my ring , Minho-Ayien♥

This is what she engraved on her ring, Kibum-Nadiah♥

Arent that sweet of both of us. Total cost was 30 bucks.

So, our official BFF's date is 20.10.2010. Okay, this is super cute :)

I know that I once said, none can be replace of mira & scandals,

but in the end, I've found someone whom understand me and, living life exactly the same as mine.

And thats her, Nur Ain. She may be a year older than me, but shes the bubbly and friendly person that I love !(apart from him,though.hehes )

She's doing well for her Arts and both of us got Science Practical tmrw.

And now, I still havent study. YAAAAAAY! *diediediedie*

Goodluck and all the best to her, in Whitley while im stuck in Temasek.

Thats Syahril's school, right ? If im not wrong. Oh well.

Boyfie told me he'll be sending me and fetching me. I have this thing,

this craving thing, I crave for ice-creaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaam ! T.T

Im superduper stress.

Im superduper inlove.

Im superduper nervous.

Oh Allah! I hope everything will went on smoothly tomorrow.

And hoping that everyone could score and do well in our practical.

lets study, now.

Waiting for someone to call.

Will be meeting second-love tmrw at 9am, to give her scarf :)